When things are going wrong, I find solace in prayer.
There are times when I look back at our relationship and I see doubt. I am scared shitless. Most of the time I am confident about us. But there are moments when it is just clouded in darkness. I don’t like that there are these moments of doubt. It scares me. What will become of us if I ever let these feelings take over me? When I left Vegas I felt strong and certain that we would be lasting. But maybe because it was the fact that I know distance wasn’t the issue. The issue is me. My moments of loneliness lead me to investigate and over think. I want to be the only one for you. I want to be the one. I don’t want to be the second choice. I know I’m not your first love but please don’t be cold towards me. The honeymoon phase has been over for a long time.